I saw a man in Safeway that looked like my grandpa, except taller and 50% more Italian, but regardless, it looked just like him. It broke my heart. I miss him.

Kieko, who had cancer I found out, still has it. I thought she was in remission but she's not. I was informed she is still dying, I felt like crying, but I couldn't..not at work. She's the strongest person I've ever met.

Today was my last day at court. Thank god! Got off pretty easy, I got to choose from a $900 fine, or 24 hours of community service, and since I don't have that kind of money just laying around, I chose to do community service. I am going to be working with the West End Theater hopefully with Edie. Oh, and 1 year of Summery Probation, which is really nothing. Although if I get into trouble for ANYTHING I will go to jail, so I have to be super careful. But it's done, and I am happy!!!

Today I went to court and let me tell you, I was so scared I almost passed out. I got probably 2 hours of sleep, and I didn't eat Breakfast so my morning started out bad. But I got there and the judge pretty much asked if I understood everything I read and signd, and i the signiture was mine. Then he asked if I could afford an attorney and I said no, so now on June 9th I have to go back to court with my attorney that the court assigned for me.

This lady that was sitting in front of me had a DUI, and she was not understanding anything the ballif was telling her and she wasn't listening. So the ballif finally asks her if she had been drinkin this morning and she was like "no!" And then the ballif asked if she had a long night and she said yes. So he called bullshit on her, because she was acting and smelled drunk. It was pretty funny.

So I am NOT looking forward to going back to court.

May 26th, 2009. 8 AM.

I have to go to court for that whole incident for buying booze for a minor. I thought the whole thing got dropped, but I guess not. I'm not sure why they decided that they would send me to court almost 4 months after being interviewed by the cops. I guess what I did was a misdemeanor. Misdemeanors are usually up to a year in jail, or up to a $2000 fine. Now, I'm sure if I get ether, it won't be that much. I'm hoping for a fine. Or even probation. But jail? I would die. Everyone seems to think that I won't go to jail for this, and I'm seriously hoping not.

Wish me luck.

Dear Ashley,
You where my first friend when I moved to Quincy and although we kind of went our seperate ways, I will NEVER forget you.

Love,
Caitlin

Works been good, Pam (the Deli Manager) has been training me to be her backup, so basically, on Saturdays and Sundays, I am the manager. Scary huh? But everything is fine and dandy there, can't say I'm a fan of waking up at 5 am to be at work at 6, but I get off at 3, so it's not so bad.

It's been SO nice out! I can't wait for summer to go camping!!! WOO!!!

Dear Baby David,
Rest in Piece lil' cousin,
I wish you didn't have to
leave us so soon. We all
love you.

Love, Me.


We have booze in the freezer that my sister bought...my mom thinks its mine, so apparently she thinks I'm an alocholic or something. Haha.

Has anyone seen the musical movie called Across the Universe that has Evan Rachel Wood in it? I absolutely LOVED it!!

I'm painting my room, I started paiting the walls the brightest white the store had, and i was going to put an awesome red design on the wall, but I keep changing my mind, so now I'm not sure.

BYE

I hate little kids.
I hate that bitch I work with.
I hope everything works out in the end. For me anyways.


I wish I could say more.


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I started the Deli on Monday. Thank god I am back to work!!! MONEY!!!!
I actually prefer being in the deli over being a checker. In the deli, when you don't have customers to wait on, you have other shit you could be doing. When you are a checker...you have to stand around and wait. So my day goes by much faster in the deli. Although, I don't like waking up at 5 to be at work by 6, but I guess I can't complain.


Dear Mom,
Happy Birthday!

Love, ME!

Safeway called me yesterday and asked if I wanted to work in the Deli. It was a guaranteed 24 hours or more. She said I probably wouldn't be back being a checker for quite a awhile, so I took the transfer to the Deli. I don't even care, I need money I am so tired of being stressed.

I read The Twilight, and I actually really liked it. Once I started reading I couldn't stop, I found it to be really addicting. This was like the 2nd book I've read in probably 4 years. Now I wanna see the movie!

I need to think of something to get my mom for her birthday..or make. I dunno.

Sav Mor called me the other day and asked me to come in for a interview, which I was pretty sure I was guaranteed to get the job, because I've already got Cashier experience. My interview was at 2:00, well around, noonish i was in the shower and missed a call from Sav Mor, so I called them back, and the higher up people, had just informed Josh that Sav Mor was on a hiring freeze until April. So, once again, a job got ripped away from me. I'm tired of this stress bullshit.

Yesterday was my birthday, Derek and I met Maryann, Brandon, Brittney, Carina, and Mike at the Roost for some drinks. Well Maryann showed up with a bunch of my favorite candies and a happy birthday balloon. The bar tender saw the balloon and gave me a free drink, so I made sure it was the most delicious and expensive one. haha. Then, Everyone decided to buy me a drink, so that was 5 free drinks. Then, my sister shows up with her friends, who bought me a shot (red headed slut). So six free drinks. Pretty drunk by then. Then Brandon drives me and Derek to Safeway where we buy beer and Skyy Vodka and go back to Brandon's. Where everything goes downhill. I was sooooooooooooooooo drunk. I ended up puking before I passed out. This morning, I woke up with the WORST hangover I have EVER had. I slept until 5 o'clock today. I puked several times this morning too. I still don't feel good and it's 3 in the morning. I don't think I'll be drinking that much again. But I had fun!

My moms birthday is next month, February 12th. I am going to crochet her a purse, what I am imagining it to be is really cute, so hopefully I'm able to do it. Because I have no directions for this. I will put a fabric lining inside with pockets and what not. Now I just have to come up with some cash to buy the yarn, zipper, fabric, etc.

Good night...or good morning, whatever.

So I haven't posted in a REALLY long time. REALLY REALLY long time.

I had a job at Safeway, and about 2 months ago I got laid off because it's slow season. So that is super gay. They call me in when needed, but it's not worth it to me, because it's usually for 4 hours. When I did go in for 4 hours, my check was a big ol' whopping $3.19, because $30 of it got snatched up for union dues. So, I told them I wouldn't work unless I got more than 4 hours, and more than one shift, because if I get another check for $3 I'm going to lose it.

I did apply at SavMor and might possibly get a job there as a cashier, I am really hoping so. I don't care how horrible, money is money. I did also apply at the hospital, but I did that today, so it will be awhile until I hear back from them. But I just hope I find something. I'm tired of being stressed out over money. THANKS SAFEWAY! X.X

So, with all this wonderful time I've got on my hands, I've been sitting on my ass, and crocheting. It' comforts me and keeps my mind off the negative things..like money. So I've been making a SHIT load of awesome hats. My dad told me I could sell them at the shop if I wanted, to make some money. I might just do that.

I cut my OWN hair today. Cut about an inch off, trimmed up my bangs into sidebands and added some layers, and to my surprise, it turned out really good!!!! I think I could enjoy doing it for a living. What a toss up though, Orthodontist Assistant...or Hairdresser? haha. I'm too poor to go to school for either of them, so I won't even think about it.

My car ran out of gas at the bottom of my driveway the other day, that was gay. Luckily my dad had some gas in the garage. Can you tell I'm poor? haha.

Well, thats my life in the past few months. Not all of it, but some.

OH. I turn into a old lady on Wednesday. The big 22!
BYE BYE. <3

I applied for a second job last night, it's for the Newspaper, and I'm not sure what I would be doing IF I got the job, but it has something to do with typing. I saw the add in the classifieds, it had a vague description. But it's 5 days a week for 6 hours a day, so I would still be able to work at Safeway. I realize it would leave little time for fun, but I need the money.

Maryann and I are trying to find a CHEAP 2 bedroom house to live in for the next year. I hope we find something.

I also plan on going to college in the next year, to become an Orthodontist Assistant. I have had this planned out since I was in the 3rd grade. I am glad that this still interests me, because I usually loose interest in things really quick. I wanna go to a Trade School or something though. So I've got my career picked, now I just need to find a town with a college...and some grants or something. Why does school have to be so expensive?

On Friday night I went to the Capital Club for 50 cent drafts and to listen to a band. The band was alright, they played a bunch of classical rock. Although It was loud as fuck in there and you couldn't hear anyone. Some girl named Sarah introduced herself ot me, and as she was talking into my ear (because it was so loud from the band) She licked my ear and rubbed my ass. I quickly walked away from her. Then we where walking to the Roost and came across 2 of the creepiest guys ever, who asked where we were going. My sisters friend said to The Roost. Then we're sitting there and this creepy guy comes up behind me and puts his hands on my shoulders and asks what our plans where....I told him to fuck off, and he got mad and left. Of course he had to come into Safeway the next day. He asked me if I as still angry, and I told him I still wanted him to fuck off. He looked like someone that could rape someone. Gross.

Oh. The cops showed up at the Capital Club. They where holding there night sticks and everything. It was awesome.

We went swimming at 3 in the morning at Spanish Creek. The water was cold. It was a silly idea.

The rum got the best of me.

There have been 300 earthquakes in Reno in the past 2 months...according the a news website. I've only felt 10....maybe. We had one on Friday night at around 11:40PM which was a 4.7 on the Richter scale. Everything I had on shelves fell to the floor. Stuff in stores fell off the shelves, waterlines broke, walls cracked, windows broke. People were evacuating Reno! There were people at our Apartment Complex sleeping in there cars. Someone's house had thousands of dollars of damage. I guess it was felt all the way over in Portola. My mom said she didn't feel anything in Quincy. Nobody knows what the hell is causing them. They think a big one is going to hit. I sure hope not.

My mom is coming to Reno today, she's going to buy us flashlights and water jugs, in case a huge one does hit. So we're going to be prepared!

I'm waiting to hear from a dental lab about a job. I'm really excited about it. They're the people that make the fake teeth for crowns and what not. I would be starting out as the person that drives around Reno and Sparks picking up lab cases and doing data entry and what not. But she said if I did get the job she would be more than happy to teach me how to make fake teeth. Which is what I want to do. That or orthodontics.

They have a game for the Wii called

Strong Bad's Cool Game for Attractive People.

Just thought you should know. =D

I need a job.
ASAP.

GOOD NEWS!
I can still drive! I don't have a warrant out for my arrest! I just called the courts, I in the clear!

BAD NEWS!
My ticket isn't $89. It is really $200. SUPER! And I have payment arrangements, $25 on the 17th of every month. So, now I have to drive to Quincy on the 17th to pay that, on top of driving there to take Dylan to the school.

HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY! (which I heard was switched to Saturday)

And why do my entries keep getting saved on the wrong date? My last one said March 22. It's the 3rd time that has happened.

geez! I have a warrant out for my arrest. Why you ask? because I didn't pay my $89 speeding ticket. Did I do it on purpose? no. I forgot. I didn't think it was due until the end of this month, but no, I am almost a week late. So now I can't drive. I have to call them on Monday and "turn myself in" and try to do payment arrangements or something, because I have no job which means, no money. GAY!

My parents came to Reno today,they took me to Lows...well more like I went with them. And my dad bought me this awesome lamp, with colors and stuff. I love it.

I really need to decided what I want to do in life. I don't know what I want my career to be. I really don't. I want to be an orthodontist, or an Ortho assistant. I did a little of that when I worked at the dentist office in Quincy. But I really need to go to school for it. I should just start applying for grants and what not so I can get started,but ugh. I want to take some art classes too. I loved it when I did. I don't know why I stopped. It could be because I owe FRC money, but whatever.

I have a bladder infection. Fantastic.

I got drunk last night. Real drunk. I talked about kitties and made grilled cheese.

Smokin Aces is a crazy movie.

I am going to a thrift store tomorrow to buy some new clothes. I am excited!

I wish my sister wasn't such a bitch. She used to be cool.
I called the house earlier and she answered, and I asked to talk to my dad, and she said NO I AM DOING MY FINALS, I AM NOT LEAVING MY ROOM!. I was like then why in the fuck did you answer the phone? So she hung up. Crazy bitches man!

Benny and Joon is the greatest movie EVER.

I must say, I am incredibly sore after working out last night. For the first time...in...a long time.

Nothing really to update about..still jobless, I have a job interview on Wed. at the hosptial though. So thats cool.

I want to get my hair cut. I'm bored with my hair.

So I got "laid off" last week, they said it's because work has been slow and because I technically don't work in the warehouse touching boxes I'm pretty much useless, and I don't have seniority. So they gave me the boot. I doubt they'll call me back. SO I have applied for about a million office jobs at the hospital. I hope I get one of those jobs because they pay good.

Other than that..nothing really going on..same ol' same ol'